Day 49 – ‚True Love‘ is Abuse and Self-Abuse

17. Juli 2012

 

This is a continuation to:

 

In this post I will be looking deeper into myself as the definition of True Love. I have already walked Self-Forgiveness on Desire and Need to be in a relationship, though I didn’t get to the ‚core‘-point, because I still was experiencing the desire for Love. What I realize now, is that I defined myself accordingly to my beliefs, perceptions, pictures, judgments and definitions of True Love, therefore I missed the point of self-definition – the WHO I AM – that I in fact manifested myself as/ became a ‚True Lover‘. In the picture above, you see my word-web, the words I have associated and connected to True Love, within this I realize that I’ve created a network of self-definitions around, within and as True Love – thus I have to walk all of those connections/words/pictures/associations, to really free myself within and as the whole point of Love/True Love/Relationships.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word Love/True Love with a positive value – and within that as ‚good‘ and ‚right‘ – within and as my Mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Fulfillment to the word Love/True Love, and within that defining the word Fulfillment within Love/True Love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word Love/True Love and from the word Fulfillment through defining the word Love/True Love within Fulfillment in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Care to the word Love/True Love, and within that defining the word Care within Love/True Love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word Love/True Love and from the word Care through defining the word Love/True Love within Care in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Happiness to the word Love/True Love, and within that defining the word Happiness within Love/True Love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word Love/True Love and from the word Happiness through defining the word Love/True Love within Happiness in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Satisfaction to the word Love/True Love, and within that defining the word Satisfaction within Love/True Love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word Love/True Love and from the word Satisfaction through defining the word Love/True Love within Satisfaction in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Stability to the word Love/True Love, and within that defining the word Stability within Love/True Love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word Love/True Love and from the word Stability through defining the word Love/True Love within Stability in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Strength to the word Love/True Love, and within that defining the word Strength within Love/True Love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word Love/True Love and from the word Strength through defining the word Love/True Love within Strength in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect Unconditional Support to the word Love/True Love, and within that defining the word Love/True Love within Unconditional Support.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word Love/True Love and from Unconditional Support through defining the word Love/True Love within Unconditional Support in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect Finacial Security to the word Love/True Love, and within that defining the word Love/True Love within Financial Security.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word Love/True Love and from Financial Security through defining the word Love/True Love within Financial Security in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how I created myself as ‚True Lover‘ simply by abdicating Self-Responsibility point by point – breath by breath – through defining myself in separation within and as Fulfillment, Satisfaction, Security, Happiness, Care, Love etc., not allowing myself to realize how I in fact gave up myself, separated myself from myself and manifested myself as a ‚dependent being‘ – dependent on an ‚outer source’/someone else ‚out there‘ – without realizing that this ’source‘ was in fact myself as the Energy that I created by the very act of separation within and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that ‚True Love‘ is but an Illusion, that I have in fact created by myself and believed in it, justified and validated it and so made the Illusion real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, how I was ready for literally die for somene else – how many people kill themselves because of Love/Lack of Love? – without allowing myself to realize that the true nature of ‚unconditional love‘ is in fact self-abuse and abuse of all as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that ‚True Love‘ as Unconditional Love – how it is propagated by spirituality, religion, lovers, mothers and fathers, politicians, gurus, preachers – is what manifested a System of Survival and Competition, because we are not giving EQUALLY to ALL as LIFE within and as Equality and Oneness, but creating ’special‘ exclusive relationships and therefore we are in fact not unconditional lovers but unconditional abusers as we are ready to pay any price for our own fulfillment, our own satisfaction, our own happiness and our own security within those fake-illusions of ’special‘ relationships that keep us ‚alive‘, secure our own survival and in fact create a System of Survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, how I was/am in fact the creator of this world, wherein I accepted and allowed myself to exist as unconditional abuser towards myself – believing that True Love is unconditional Giving as Sacrifice, no matter what, with no regard for Life – and therefore I was blinded and accepted and allowed abuse to exist in the world (war, poverty, starvation, conflict, environmental pollution) –  equal-to and one-with the acceptance and allowance within and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the definition of Love that I’ve created – with true-lovers as the Givers of Love (as Sacrifice) and the love-manipulators as the Takers of Love (as Abuse) – is in fact a polarity-cycle based on the Illusion of Separation, wherein I believed that someone has to give Love/Life – in fact give up and sacrifice oneself – for others to receive – take – Love/Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being the Giver of Love/Life – wherein whenever the cycle moved towards me being the one that ‚must‘ give/give up/sacrifice myself as Love/Life – I refused, run away, creating justifications and validations for my Fear – never allowing myself to question the Love-Program itself and stopping the Cycle of Separation – but running away, creating more consequences and traumas – trying to manipulate the Cycle of Separation to my own advantage in becoming the Taker of Love/Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that True Love as Energy, as a Feeling, will never ‚fix‘ anything nor myself, because it is by its very Nature a System that in NOT Life – shifting and cycling between the Polarities (negative and positive Energy) – preoccupying me within and as the Mind-Consciousness System and as long as I define myself within and as ‚True Love‘ I will never be able to grasp and realize myself as LIFE – that is and always was in fact HERE –  giving literally LIFE to ALL – – supporting me and all as me unconditionally – – Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as an ‚True Lover‘ to abuse Life as me and all as me – not allowing myself to realize that we ARE already existing in a Physical Existence of Oneness and Equality and that we have ‚just‘ to stop our Separation within ourselves and without as the current System and allign ourselves to this Physical Existence of Equality and Oneness to create Heaven on Earth – a place where ‚Love‘ is not a Feeling generated within and as one’s Mind only but a Living Application that is visible, tangible and in fact lived in every Breath.



Post a new comment

Copyright © 2012-2015 AGA | All rights reserved.