I am here, at the desteni farm. It’s my third visit. Each time it is …
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that I have justified ‚Perfection‘, because within my Mind it seemed to be ‚right‘ to achieve the ‚perfect‘ outcome, to do things ‚perfectly‘, to be ‚perfect‘.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise, how through charging the word ‚Perfection‚ and ‚being perfect‘ or ‚doing things perfectly‘ with a positive Value within and as my Mind – it automatically seems to me to be ‚good‘ and something I have to protect, defend or fight for – basically to justify it at all costs.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise how I have defined ‚Perfection‘ in separation of myself, creating a ‚feeling‘ out of it within and as my Mind, and so then believe, that if I am able to generate that ‚feeling‘, I somehow ‚really‘ achieve an objective ‚Perfection‘.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust a feeling and believe it’s real, not realising that a feeling does only exist within and as my Mind, and that I can come up with anything I want to believe and within my Mind it always will look ‚good‘ and ‚right‘ to me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise, that me ‚just‘ wanting the ‚perfect‘ outcome, is a total LIE and self-dishonesty, because what I really do, is to defend and protect ‚my‘ feeling at all costs, and so completely manipulate myself to not see, realise and understand that I’m actually even sabotaging the Possibility, Opportunity and Responsibility of creating a ‚REAL‘ ‚best for ALL‘ ‚perfect‘ Outcome/Solution or doing things perfectly as to my Fullest Potential.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise how I manipulated the definition and my application of ‚Perfection‘ to only suit my self-interest, to make me ‚feel‘ perfect, and actually lost sight of the outcome/solution/result.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that the Desire to achieve Perfection is in fact Fear as the actual motivation behind the scenes of my conscious mind, where in my Secret Mind – the space within and as my Mind that I do not share with anyone – I fear to be a failure, not to be perfect, not being valuable or afraid that someone could think that I’am a failure, not perfect or not valuable – so that within my Secret Mind I do not care about anything else but my own self-interest, deluding myself and creating Justifications and Excuses to protect my ‚precious perfect feeling‘.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not admit that in order to create that ‚precious perfect feeling‘ within my Mind, I DO in fact dismiss, blame and judge anyone else to be less than me, and so basically project all the sh*t, all fears and paranoia, that is ongoing within my Secret Mind onto others, that they are ‚imperfect‘, less valuable and failures.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise how I brainwashed myself to believe that ‚Perfection‘ is ‚good‘, not seeing, realising and understanding, that what I’ve really done, is justify Paranoia as ‚good‘, creating a World that is based on Fear and Survival, where All must exist in constant Fear of being less than ‚perfect‘, doing things not perfectly enough, and within that Fear of being of NO Value.
I commit myself to whenever I become aware of wanting/desiring perfection, to be perfect or doing something perfectly – to STOP my Participation within and as the Mind and breathe – I allow myself to realise at what costs I actually create that ‚feeling‘ within my Mind, in separating myself from myself and losing sight of LIFE, allowing Fears to control and define the ‚who I am‘ – and brainwashing myself to believe that a ‚feeling‘ is more real than actual living application of myself in Oneness and Equality as Life HERE.
I commit myself to assit and support myself to STOP the FEAR of not being perfect, not doing things perfectly – as I see, realise and understand that the Outcome and Result of that FEAR is NOT what’s best for All, but quite the opposite – a World full of Paranoia based on Fear and Survival, where we compete and compare ourselves in our Secret Minds to achieve some ‚positive perfect feeling‘ that only suits our self-interest.
I realise that creating/desiring ‚Perfection‘ within and as the Mind actually causes Consequence of ‚Imperfection‘ in the World, because to create a ‚positive‘ Feeling within and as the Mind, everything and everyone else must be repeatedly dismissed, blamed and judged and what actually is being created and manifested is ‚Negativity‘!
I commit myself to STOP my own brainwashing machine – the MIND – and to focus NOT on Perfection as a Feeling, but rather live and express myself HERE within and as the Physical to create an Outcome/Result/Solution to this World, that is perfect as what’s best for All.
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