Day 3 – I am a wife

22. April 2012

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a wife, in terms of being someone’s ‚property‘.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I as a being could be a property of another being, within that I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to contribute to the enslavment of Life, because as within so without – children are properties of their parents, the population is the property of the government, the worker is the property of the employer etc. – a complete system of enslavment, where the polarity of ‚owners‘ and ‚owned‘ is created.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I as a woman am not ‚whole‘ and ‚one‘, and that only through being in relationship with another being (a man), I become ‚whole‘ and ‚one‘.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe stories of the bible, that God created man and woman as a Unity, without ever questioning the consequences of that belief, because what is with all the beings, that have no relationship? Are they damned? How could I be blinded to the fact, that almost half of the marriages are splitting and breaking? Why do we have to dependent on someone to become ‚whole‘ and ‚one‘?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need to be dependent on someone to be ‚whole‘ and ‚one‘.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create relationships of dependency to be ‚whole‘ and ‚one‘.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I could shift and move my responsbility to someone else, in terms of, now I am ‚your wife‘ and ‚your problem‘.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe a realationship/marriage is where it is ‚allowed‘ and even ‚good‘ to move (self-)responsibility onto the partner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a delusional belief, that my partner is responsible for me, in terms of that now it’s he’s job to make me ‚whole‘ and ‚one‘.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that as a Unity blessed by God (a married couple) one create a ’special‘ relationship, that is more ‚worth‘ that any other relationships, thus I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that this kind of ’special‘ relationships are what makes our world a fuckup place of competition, where even couples are competing of being the ’special‘ ones, in terms of ‚We are soooooo happy, we are so perfect and look great together!‘

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a marriage is so ’special‘ f*cking ‚holy‘ that it’s a ’sin‘ to end a marriage.

How can we allow a ‚definition‘ to be more ‚worth‘ then what’s best for all?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in and live accordingly to pre-programmed and pre-designed ‚definitions‘, that do not support Life, thus I forgive myself for not allowing myself to consider what’s best for all and live by the principle of what’s best for all within creating relationships with other beings.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to create relationships that are based on the principle of what’s best for all, not realizing that I get what I give, so when I allow myself to believe I can move/shift my responsbility onto others, I get all the millions shifted and not taken care of ’situations‘ of others back, and so we create a mess as this world, where nothing is taken care of, a fuckup place as it currently exists, where half of the earth’s population is living a life of bare survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe, that my responsbility as a wife or as a husband, is to make my partner ‚happy‘, what practically means to serve our self-interest, in terms of I do something for you, and you do something for me, without the consideration of what’s best for all Life, and therefore in fact accepting abuse, serving abuse, creating abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being in a non-defined relationship, in terms of believing I need a ‚defined‘ relationship because I define myself accordingly to a relationship, and having a non-defined relationship means for me, not knowing who I am, thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that without a relationship I miss something and I am not ‚whole‘.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear stopping myself as the definition of being a wife, due to the fear of losing myself and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I would lose myself when my marriage is ‚over‘.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear stopping myself as the definition of being a wife, due to fear of people reactions, thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to explain myself to others, because one need apparently ‚good‘ reasons for stopping a marriage.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a divorce as a failure, negative and bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being without a relationship in regards to being financially stable, I fear becoming poor without a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in and create relationships that are based on survival, and not on what’s best for all.

I commit myself to participate in and create relationships that are based on the principle of what’s best for all, because I realize that I get what I give, and me creating agreements that’s based on the principle of what’s best for all, is me creating a world that’s best for me too.

I commit myself to walk a process of change, wherein I stop myself as a participant and creator of survival on this planet, I commit myself to stand up as an example of a living being that is considering what’s best for all, creating relationships as agreements – agreements as equals – without any form of polarities.

I commit myself to stop defining myself accordingly to pre-programmed and pre-designed definitions without considering what’s best for all, I realize that definitions without the consideration of what’s best for all, are in fact abuse and limitation.

I commit myself to take self-responsibility as who I have allowed to become as a wife, because only through taking self-responsibility I am able to stop and to change myself as who I have allowed myself to define myself as and to become.

I commit myself to stop defining myself as being someone’s property, and within that realizing that no living being or manifestation can be ‚owned‘.

I commit myself to stop fear of survival directing me in creating and participating in relationships, because through that I will only create relationships that are based on dependency and on fear, thus I commit myself to walk out of fear as mind-dependencies, to free myself and this world, and I commit myself to ensure that I create a world that’s best for all Life and that no being is forced again to create relationships of dependency due to fear of survival.

I commit myself to walk my process of change to realize myself as Life, because Life itself is value and fulfillment, I realize that desire of having a relationship that is based on self-interest is a relationship of dependency.

I commit myself to not stop until all relationships of dependency are changed into agreements, where no fear of survival is accepted and allowed to exist, where all living beings are one and equal, and thus responsible for ALL as one and equal.



1 comment

  1. Awesome! I couldn’t have stumbled across this at a better time. I want to just steal your self forgiveness and commitments and place them at the end of my blog this would be perfect for! lol! (But I know I have to go through the work myself!) Thanks for sharing:)

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