I am here, at the desteni farm. It’s my third visit. Each time it is …
When and as I see limiting myself within and as ‚my own self-interested point of view‘ for example within situations of conflict, argument, discussion etc. – I stop, I breath – I realise that I am accessing a personality/character of being self-righteous and not allowing myself to consider a situation from the perspective/principle of what’s best for all, but trying to survive within a system, not seeing and understanding that within this, I am in fact creating the very system of survival; Therefore I commit myself to face my fears and change my very nature of fear and self-righteousness as the justification and excuse for my nature of fear to what’s best for all, changing my starting point of survival to Life itself, where I do consider all Life equally as one and do not limit myself within and as a self-interested point of view.
When and as I see creating a ‚truth‘ within and as me – as for example inner conversations of ‚This is what I really think, or this is what I really believe, or this is what I really experienced for myself, this is how I really see it‘ – I stop, I breath – I realize that all ‚honest‘ thoughts/inner conversations are but justifications and excuses to continue and perpetuate my existence as a system, not allowing myself to look and see within self-honesty WHO I AM within and as those ‚truths‘, how I created those ‚truths‘ and defined myself accordingly.
I commit myself to not fear self-honesty, and to look into my ‚truths‘ as the WHO I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as and re-define them to what’s best for all. I commit myself to free myself of all ‚truths‘ as system-honesty with writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application: to face my own judgments, opinions, rules, norms etc.
I realize that I must sort out my own dishonesty, my own self-manipulation, my own lies firstly within and as myself to be able to stand stable within and as the world system, because I am creating in the outer that what I am in the inner, and the world system is a mirrow of what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as myself.
When and as I see myself having an inner conflict/inner conversation of „should I tell the truth or should I lie/tell not the whole truth/manipulate my ‚truth’“ – I stop, I breath – I realize that in moments where I get worried about the ‚version‘ of ‚truth‘ I’m gonna present to others I totally miss the point – self-honesty! Therefore I commit myself to slow down within those situations, and to look within self-honesty WHO I AM within and as those situations, to look at my ‚truths‘, ‚judgments‘ and ‚opinions‘ – WHAT do I in fact fear – because I realize that FEAR is the reason and my starting point of having and creating those inner conflicts/inner conversations.
When and as I see myself judging someone or something within and as a starting point of ‚Honesty‘, in terms of believing and thinking that ‚I am very honest now, and so speak the whole ‚truth‘ – to stop and to breath – and allow myself to realize that I am activating a character/personality of self-righteousness, wherein I justify my ‚unique‘ point of view that is in fact based on self-interest to be the ‚Truth‘ – which is in fact a vary limited Mind-Bubble – Therefore I commit myself to bring back to self the judgment/opinion/’truth‘ and to investigate and to face the WHO I AM within and as this judgment/opinion in self-honesty.
I realize that Self-Honesty is a Living Statement wherein I take responsibility for my own participation and my creation within and as a Mind-Consciousness-System, and that it is not about the ‚choice‘ within a polarity of ‚right‘ and ‚wrong‘, but facing Self as what Self has allowed and accepted and realizing the responsibility of my actions and deeds, thoughts, feelings and emotions as my ‚motivators‘ – basically to face what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as and through that what I have accepted and allowed myself to create.
Therefore I commit myself to face myself regardless – in brutal self-honesty – and so become fully aware of my own creation, the true nature of myself, so that I can stand equal to and one with myself as my own creation as myself to be able to change it, not from a separate ‚point of view’/judgment but as a Living Statement/Word – self-honest in every breath – self-responsible in every breath – standing equal to and one with LIFE.