I am here, at the desteni farm. It’s my third visit. Each time it is …
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that ‚Honesty‘ is a program that I have learned and induced into and upon myself, that promote only the Survival of a System and therefore promote only a System of Survival.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if the creator human was about to be and live within and as self-honesty, there would be no starvation, no war, no poverty, no extinction of animals and nature, no environmental pullution etc. as we would in self-honesty never allow and accept ourselves to harm others within and as the realization of Life, that we are one with and equal to everything, every being, every manifestation that exist in Oneness and Equality in this and as this Physical Existence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that from a honest perspective (my own self-interested point of view) I am not responsible and therefore not able/ in any position to change the System how it currently functions/works.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can honestly nothing do, to change the ’negative‘ consequences that are created within and as the capitalistic system, not realizing that everytime (daily) I have money in my hands – I am voting for, participating in, pursuing and so creating the capitalistic system.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all laws, rules and behavioral norms are part of the System, and that ‚Honesty‘ is the execution button and a program that I myself have created and defined myself as to control the outcomes of all laws, rules and behavioral norms to fit into and further more pursue the creation of ourselves as the System of Survival.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bot realize that honesty as telling the truth, and not being honest as lying is one and the same, where it functions as a fake ‚choice‘ of ‚right‘ and ‚wrong‘, ‚good‘ and ‚bad‘, ‚positive‘ and ’negative‘ – not realizing that this ‚choice‘ is pre-programmed and part of the System, where no matter which ‚path‘ I choose I will create the same outcomes/consequences as it is not based on self-honesty, which means self-responsibility of each one.
Take for instance a car accident: I accidentially damaged my neighbours car while parking. Do I tell the truth ot do I try to find an excuse or justification to avoid the ‚punishment‘? Our law is teaching us that there is always a guilter and a victim (‚right‘ and ‚wrong‘, ‚good‘ and ‚bad‘, ‚positive‘ and ’negative‘). My only ‚choice‘ is to define myself within and as the polarity pattern that is provided by the System. We are never considering a solution that is outside of the System – a solution that is best for all, we even believe that there is no solution beside the System – that there is NO solution that is best for all. There must be a victim and there must be a guilter. Someone has to pay – someone has to win, someone has to lose. We never allowed ourselves to step out of the imprisonment without realizing that it’s us creating that imprisonment by the very allowance and acceance of ourselves to exist as the very System – that it is in fact us – THE System.
I for mySelf decide to step out of the System of Survival and be a practivist of the Equal-Money-System. Within the EMS, a car-accident would be not about to find the victim and the guilter, it is about taking responsibility for one’s own creation – how to prevent car accidents, how to handle car-accidents and find a solution that’s best for all. All participants of a car accident would be firstly equally as one responsible for that car-accident and as we are existing within and as Equality and Oneness within and as ONE Physical Existance – we are equal as one responsible for ALL car-accidents. No abuse can be accepted nor allowed – when ONE of us is not self-responsible, it must be stopped and changed, so when a car-accident is NO accident and abuse (alcohol, drugs etc) is cause of the problem – the abuse must be stopped. And all points of the car-accident should be supported and assisted in a way that’s best for all. And such solutions can only be found in Self-Honesty.
Today when you cause a car-accident while abusing alcohol, you lose you driver licence and some months later you get a new driver licence and make the same mistakes over and over again, The System is not providing solutions, it is creating consequences. The Money flows and the show goes on.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that honesty is to admit my ‚failures‘ and ‚mistakes‘ and that’s all! That all I have to do is to be/feel ‚guilty‘ and my ‚sins‘ will be taken away and forgiven, not realizing that I have to face myself in self-honesty and so forGIVE myself my existence within and as those ‚failures‘ and ‚mistakes‘ – and that self-honesty and self-forgiveness is a practical tool to change myself for REAL – to change myself as those ‚failures‘ and ‚mistakes‘ – and so once and for all stop myself as the Problem, because I realize that I am the problem and therefore I am the solution.
Artwork By Damian Ledesma