This post is a continuation to Day 70 – What is Self-Honesty.

This weekend I had the opportunity of facing a situation, where I witnessed a car accident. I saw how we humans are in fact limiting ourselves to see reality through our own self-interested point of view, we are never interested in what best for all, and therefore we are the creators of a system of survival, where we always compete with each other and so become the victims of our own creation – not allowing ourselves to stop – and face ourselves in self-honesty – to change our very nature of fear – take responsibility for our nature of and as fear – stop it and change it into what best for all and so stop our creation of hell on earth – start living and supporting ourselves as all – and so eventually creating heaven on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being self-honest, and live and express myself in self-honesty – not realizing, seeing and understanding, that through this very acceptence and allowance of myself to exist within and as fear I create a System of Survival, where I further more pursue dishonesty, manipulation, betrayal and lies – and so create hell on earth, where everyone is an ‚enemy‘ I must fear – equal and one with myself being an ‚enemy‘ to all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and define being honest with always telling the ‚truth‘, not allowing myself to realize, that what I am/was living as ‚truth‘ is/was in fact a limited point of view based on my self-interest and not on whats best for all – and therefore my very starting point is/was already self-dishonest/dishonest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and define the word ‚truth‘ as absolute honesty, not allowing myself to stop and investigate how I would use and abuse that ‚truth‘ as a justification to not have to face myself in self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use and abuse honesty to judge others, believing that ‚my‘ point of view is better/more honest then other’s point of view.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that honesty is in fact a self-manipulation to justify my limited point of view as truth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my starting point of being honest is based on fear – where I feared being exposed as a ‚liar‘ – and so honesty was never in fact self-honesty, but the version where others would agree on/with my truth and except my point of view.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that honesty is about to be ‚right’/better then other’s, wherein self-honesty is about to face myself as that ’self-righteousness‘ and my creation and the outflows/consequences of accepting and alowing myself to exist within and as that ’self-righteousness‘.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that honesty is in fact a system, wherein I limit myself and others as myself to a ‚unique‘ self-interested point of view – and as long as others accept my point of view and we agree upon a ‚truth‘ – we are ‚honest‘ – not realizing how we have limited ourselves and separated ourselves to not be able to consider things from a perspective of equality and oneness – and so in fact created our own ‚prison‘ within and as a system of survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that honesty is never about to realize myself as WHO I am allowing and accepting myself to exist as, but about morality and loyality to the system (of survival).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that honesty will never bring about the change of the system and of ourselves as our nature of fear – as honesty makes us blind to the fact of our starting point within and as self-dishonesty, as it is never about taking responsibility for one’s own judgments, points of view, beliefs, opinions etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that honesty is a trap of the system to justify and so pursue my own limitation as a loyal system robot.